I met an old friend online... my old patrol-mate. :) Chatted about times past, about the present, about Guides, about TKG... getting nostalgic.
This bit is interesting, and revives some old emotions in me.
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MY: and yes.. guess wad.. after i left guides.. i actually missed it.. and went back to serve.. even XH cldn't believe it..
MY: she thot i was joking.. haha..
MY: and i'm the only one serving from our batch...
husky: ?!!
husky: uhhhh.... O_O
min yu: haha...
husky: actually, know what? i kinda miss it too.
husky: so are you a ranger? or CLT?
MY: yup.. i dun really miss our seniors.. but they dun come back either..
MY: erm.. i din go for the course.. coz it's ex and the sch doesn't want to pay for us.. so i'm juz a unit helper.. but they call us CLT
husky: ooo cool... Cadet Lieutenants... hehe
husky: but i did join my local guide unit when i was in Syd
MY: ic..
husky: and now i'm trying to balance out my schedule so that i can join the scouts here
MY: =) u're still very active huh? u noe sth..
husky: the guides here are hmm... kinda laughed upon. 'cos they do all the 'girly' stuff
MY: if u hadn't left us that time.. u'd become the next Company leader..
husky: many girls join scouts instead
husky: erm...
MY: ic..
MY: haha..
husky: the rebellious me? always missing meetings and all
MY: hmm.. but u had the potential.. and u were good..
husky: always full of complaints... lol
husky: is the coy on better ground now? or still the same old "louder! you talking to ants issit?!"
MY: haha.. no lar.. no more such nonsense.. only during sudden inspections or footdrills then we do that, but we try not to resort to such "violent" means too.. haha, it's worse tho.. in a sense..they have no discipline and no respect..
husky: you know whenever i hear that two-toned whistle, my mind instinctively thinks "darn! sudden inspection!". it happened again just last week when a cop in some play i was watching blew his police whistle... it's freaky... the effect of certain things in guides...
MY: oh dear...traumatised...
husky: no discipline... hmm... then that's bad. as for respect, i never really thought it was respect for the seniors from the start ('cept for a few)... it was more like fear from corporal punishment and all that
husky: hehe
MY: haha.. no more corporal punishments.. but this time.. the respect thing is like quite bad.. i mean.. they really talk to us like they're talking to their frens.. in smses they even include profanities..
husky: aww that bad? profanities in smses? what do they do... give you flak?
min yu: it's like when they're not happy abt sth, they msg u immediately and voice their views.. like the other time when we released the probational posts, this guide who's always been quite loud thot she wld get the CL post and she went ard boasting bout it, but when she din get it, she msged murni and went like : f--- ....
husky: doesn't sound good at all. :( it can only get downhill from here... sigh. the younger generations (not that we're *that* old! hehe) are just becoming bolder and bolder.
husky: don't the guiders do anything about it? mm who are the guiders now anyway? gosh... i'm sooo out of touch
MY: yar.. that's why.. sometimes we get headaches thinking of how to change them..
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I know I shouldn't be looking back, shouldn't be thinking backwards. But I still do wonder
what if I had stayed...
what if I didn't go... all those opportunities of a different sort. Would it groom me into a better person, in a way? Leading the prefectorial ExCo... leading the coy... I knew great things were in store for me and yet I left. But I left for even greener pastures? For the sake of my future? If I hadn't gone to Sydney there'll be no doubt I couldn't have made it here. There's absolutely no way I could've had the luck of ending up here if I made my launch from Singapore.
Making new friends, experiencing a richer side of life, absorbing a new culture, learning and living the ways of a new country... getting the chance to say "G'day mate!" and coming to understand true blue Aussie Strine lingo, I gain these and more only through losing much. Gain some, lose some. That's the way it always has been. That's life. I do wonder, but I have no regrets.
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